Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Midnight thoughts

Third night in a row SiM wakes up coughing and can't seem to fall back asleep easily. Hubby's taking care of him and I suddenly find myself very awake.

An intrusive thought keeps coming up of just how much I miss my previous work assignment. Nostalgic memories of the hospital-like environment, kosher cafeteria with its brew-it-yourself coffee, hot breakfasts and lunches, the doctors, the nurses, rec programs, the morning rounds with self-important-too-numerous-to-count-vice-presidents, the almost-always-annoying-but-sometimes-cool MD and PA students, social workers, dietitians, volunteers...lots of friendly and lots of unfriendly people who finally started to respond to greetings...

(I'm aware that I sound like an immigrant whose memories over time make everything and everybody 'back home' seem bright and beautiful, educated, and polite...Awareness is not helpful this time.)

I tell myself that I was 'the bigger person' for leaving instead of staying and getting two ignorant 'colleagues' reassigned or fired. But then, I remember that good guys finish last and I don't want to be the 'bigger', 'better', 'more mature'...

Hope SiM gets better soon (for many reasons and ) because typically midnight thoughts are quite unproductive.

10 comments:

Jacob Da Jew said...

Is there a previous post dealing with the other job?

Barb Chansky said...

As known by the long and uninterruped family history, we have a tendency to be bigger, more mature, and more decent people; it's also known how it usually ends; thanks for Mom and Dad for such "improper" upbringing:)Refua Shelema to little Sim

Sally Hazel said...

JDJ- I have a cute (if I say so myself) post from the prev assign.


http://reincarnatedsally.blogspot.com/2007/12/banana-for-baby.html

Barb, don't know about my decency or maturity but I definitely miss eating normal food:)

Barb Chansky said...

I also miss kosher cafeteria, four and change weeks vacation, early Fridays and Jewish Holidays, 35 hour work week... Well, you gain some, you loose some (very philosophical and original, I know):)

Sally Hazel said...

Well, if that's how you want to go, I REALLY miss my 3 months paid leave, 1.5 hour lunches, shopping, and the generally pleasant neighborhood...

SubWife said...

Refuah Shelema to the little guy.

Sally Hazel said...

Barb and Subwife, thanks!

Mikeinmidwood said...

Hope the little one feels better.

Moshe said...

Give him some Nemiroff honey pepper ;-)

For kid's Tylenol, I tried giving Shlomik cherry, grape, hated it. When I gave him bubblegum flavor, the response was "more".

Sally Hazel said...

Thanks, MIM.

Yesterday after another awakening with non stop coughing, he had to go to sleep on 3 pillows...

My daughter, who by now has a cold too, was very excited about her cold medicine until she tasted it. and gagged, poor thing. Those things are noxious...

SiM actually likes grape tylenol... but I'll be on the lookout for the bubble gum flovor.